Being Still

Well, I'm back. I'm tired. And a little crazy. Lets talk. The week started crazy. We put my house for sale. We have had some lookers and alot of calls. No bids yet. Keeping my house clean is keeping me crazy. Notice I have said the word crazy 3 times. As I write this it is Sunday night. The baby has gone to sleep. And me and Madison are watching the Amazing Race. I'm having a difficult time keeping it together with the whole house cleaning and showing it all the time. Poor little Miller has no idea what is going on with odd people in our home everyday. I'm taking a bible study on Wednesday mornings and it is trying to teach me to be still. Listen to God. He is telling me something. Today's lesson in Sunday School was the same thing....our teacher said Be Still. How do you do this in a world that is wrapped around volunteering, Activities and Running a household. I pray to God everyday, I pray for family, friends, his will. I'm not sure why I'm being tested with my patience but I'am. I have several girlfriends who I call accountability partners. Women who walk with God and I know I could call at anytime to vent. One called Saturday night just to talk and I vented about everything. My answer is to be still. I know this but have a hard time doing it. My calender is booked. My time with my bible is zero lately. My faith is all around me. I talk to God everyday. But for some reason dont seem to hear what he is telling me. I stay home with my kids...devote my life to my family and God. But when things like selling my house pop up or I over book myself in life my patience run thin.

I did however have a massage on Saturday morning and it was wonderful. Please pray that I learn patience...and most of all to be still and listen to what he has to say.